| interest |
[Jun. 25th, 2008|09:32 pm] |
What is the interest you gain from a person, that makes you feel like you can just forget everything you knew just to enjoy that new fling. We are so shallow in eachothers eyes and theres no room for understanding. How good it feels to slip inside something new. Hey, dont tell me to hurry up.. I cant speed this up. First off, i'd like you rip your feelings apart, then we can begin this again. Oh yeah, this friendship.
Here came a flower in which was more beautiful then all the others. It grew tall and colorful until the day it was fully bloomed. It died overnight at its climax from a venum it had been creating. And the whole time, we watched thinking it would be the number one flower ever. |
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| this is a little different than before.... |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|08:57 pm] |
i havent written in here so long... damn i hate starting my entries like that. its so lame and always repeated when it comes to my LJ. How is this live anyway? i would think myspace is more live than LJ... since u can see whos on and what not. well LJs changed so much maybe i CAN see whos on... ah i dont feel like looking. heheh
i swear theres a purpose to this entry.
theres got to be a purpose to every entry i suppose, even if the purpose is pointless and crazy at the same time. its just time well spent,kinda.
at the library right now, i spend a lot of my time here now. looking for the right school in the area and tryin to meet the requirements. i hate school, i dont know why im even tryin to enroll. school was a playground to me, the best one ever. everything i know, i didnt learn in school. not only that, but the sitting still part too.. damn i envy all who can. then it comes to the attention part where i used to try so hard to get in class. letting small baby frogs loose in class was definately a cry for attention back in 8th grade (first time). I hate saying that. i should learn how to use my capitals when i type, too. Anyways, i dont think im guna keep following these goals i've set for myself (as far as school goes) Its not that i think i cant do it, trust me i know i can if i really wanted to. Its the want part that im lacking motivation in. Its great to have something to fall back on though... ah who knows, as of now im just going to follow this road. My job is great, i cant believe that i found something as great as the one i work now. this field offers a lot for me, things im interested in and none which require a degree of any sort. If i were to stick with this i could make a decent salary in which i could live and support off of. the human in me wants more though, which is why im tryin to enroll. lol i sit here and i pour my thoughts and feelings about my life to maybe gain some kind of understanding as of where im trying to get. deep down it really comes down to the fact that im such a "live for the moment" kind of person that i cant really try and settle for a solution, or goal in this case. in the end ill just take what feels right at the time, and if that begins to change.. well im immune to change and to me change can be a great thing ;)
take it easy-
gabby |
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| live update |
[Jun. 4th, 2006|11:29 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | minha casa | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thirsty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cartel!! last chance | ] |
Alright match, ill update my journal then. ive been puttin it off and now its to the point where i have so much to write i dont even want to :( but ill write about it all cause if i didnt it would defeat the whole purpose of having a lj. k! well FLA was fucking great. i wish i would of gotten to spend more time there. i drove down friday at like 5 and got there at like 1:30 in the morning. we all met up at mals... me, mal, rust, elvin and lucas. then we went looking for hotels by the beach and met up with rachie,joe,aaron,julie, and nikki.well we looked for hotels for almost 2 hrs i think, and went to stores in between that time and bought the world. lol we finally ended up lowering our standards and gettin a hotel that wasnt by the beach. well im sure anyone can guess what happen in there.. a lot of alcohol and a lot of pot cause were nothing but lushes and potheads and oh so deserving of the label. naw it was a great time though. i remember looking at everyone in the room and being so content with being there with them. next morning i was miserable and super drunk. i couldnt stand up and NO ONE WOULD LET ME FUCKIN SLEEP! grr. haha it was great. well then we me match and fiss went to broward mall. i got some cool ass brasilian shoes, got some plugs for allstar and a bob marley candle for mal. then we picked up stef and chilled at a random pool for a bit. omg this entry is never guna end if i keep being so specific. argh. k! then we met up with everyone again and went to city streets!! thats it! aw but no, i wanna break it down cause it was so great. lol k so i get there and got tokens, then i went to the bathroom and then i came out and started playing video games and elvin and rachi asked me to take my truck to get nikki and i said okay and then me and mal played video games and i said to her "hey mal ur a fuckin dork" and.. and.. lmao jp guys. yeah so me mal nikki and stef did bungee jumping, it was really funny. then we played a couple more games and smoked a couple of ciggs while we waited for laser tag to be ready. well laser tag was probably the best thing that happened all weekend. it was amazing! it was just us in there... everytime we ran into someone, we knew who they were. the whole field was ours for the taking and we fucking took it alright. nikki beat all of our asses.. probably cause she was standing still in one corner like a damn sniper and gettin all of us. i came in like 4th place.. lol i was running everywhere being loud as hell so it wasnt hard to find me. then we went back to kathy's house and did the usual scene. went back to mal's and slept in her comfy ass fuckin bed! then we dropped our allstar off at the bus station and went back to mals so i can get rea-ty to leave. i left there at like 1 on sunday got to jess's house at like 7 i think. i made pretty good timing i think. it was worth it all the way, i love you guys.
so yea then i pretty much worked the whole week again- work sucks. on thursday jess, sam, heather, jason, and me had a little bbq at jasons' pool. it was great.. we have pics.. jasons suppost to make a blog soon.. so yeah went swiming then we walked on the marsh over where jason and sam are guna move too. very nice.
on friday i went to work, it was a piece of cake.. my superviser wasnt there and i was pretty much done with the job so i took an extra long lunch and met up with my girl for some good ass greek food. i had a kick ass gyro. hmm... i want one now. then left work early around 2 and went to jess's. we got ready and headed to jax. our first little road trip together, it was so cute... us listening to music together, her cuddling up next to me so she can stick her feet out the window. the sun shining down on us and her whistling to my favorite songs when she knows i hate it. well we got to the hotel and we took a shower and stuff and went out to dinner.. we chose this buffet down the street.. okay fine, it was my choice for the buffet. but we both stuffed ourselves stupid and went back to the hotel and laid in bed together feeling sick..ah and she somehow manage to make the clicker fly into my eyeball..my eye is still swore, i think its swollen. lol then her plane left in the morning and now shes gone for 15 fuckin days. this is guna suck.
so last night was super duper fun! i went out with ash and donny and met all of ash's friends.. very nice people. we went out for sushi, it was like 10 of us. i had a california roll cause thats all i know. i tried to order calamari but i got sushi wrapped in calamari.. weird. then we went back to daves' place and got plastered. did beer shot guns, and took shots and snorted a little coke to top it off. it was nice and chilled. lol yeah im fuckin kidding. we just drank, i never hang around with anything else other then booze. so yeah we talked shit, laughed at stupid things, took myspace pictures went out to eat and made a really cool friend (the server) and called it a night! now im tryin to get myself together so we can go over to the river and go swiming cause its a nice day out. i guess ill write about it on here later if i go. i'd rather write about the past then the future. the past is set and the future never is. nah mean? have a nice day bunches!
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take it easy
gabSter
ps: im in love with cartel |
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| they died, but died together |
[Apr. 24th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tbs- divine intervention | ] |
i cant believe the new cd comes out 2morrow. i cant stop listening to the link. my favorite song so far is miami... no its divine intervention.. no its liar liar!!!!! haw :( they are so fuckin awesome. they are playing some warped tours..but probably not in fla. usually the good bands play cali when they do warped tour, heads up. well its almost 11 so i g2g. time goes by so fast.
tbs = love
gab
Yeah, we're stubborn and melodramatic,
A real class act. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|11:22 pm] |
The whole truth and nothing but the truth
Stop me if you've heard this one before
The whole truth is nothing but a good excuse
So long as you don't torture me with my past
Let's be honest; a secret silenced is a secret safe
Miami, Miami, Miami
Well every hour on the hour
(every hour on the hour)
You have to, you just have to trust me
Whoever I was then,
I can't ever be again
Reminders, they are not reluctant
So stop me if you've heard this one before
Sideways blinders,
I can't find a way (around a way) around..
Miami, Miami, Miami
Well every hour on the hour
You have to, you just have to trust me
Whoever I was then,
I can't ever be again
The faith you found I never felt (never felt)
The terror held in wedding bells
And comfort in there's no one else
The truth be told I'm never gonna know
Miami Miami Miami
Well every hour on the hour (every hour on the hour)
Unhand me, God damn me, Miami
Whoever I was then I can't ever be again
The terror held in wedding bells
The comfort in there's no one else
The truth be told I'm never gonna know
The terror held in wedding bells
The comfort in there's no one else
The truth be told I'm never gonna know |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|01:06 pm] |
Hardened Heart
You scored 46 sorrow, 13 vengeance, 20 forgetfulness, and 53 reason! | "Once burned..."
The result of your broken heart is most probably just disappointment.
But you tend to think things through thoroughly, your analysis of the
situation is probably logical, you use your sense of reason. However,
that may lead you to the conclusion that it's better to keep away from
falling in love again - at least for a while, because love means pain. |  |
My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 42% on sorrow | | You scored higher than 14% on vengeance | | You scored higher than 14% on forgetfulness | | You scored higher than 14% on reason |
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| lets vent |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|12:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | scadd | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | clicking over and over | ] |
sup sup whats going on? im pretty damn bored, im over at one of jess's college buildings right now.. waiting for her to get outta class. some shitty stuff happened last night at work, and well now i dont work there anymore. its alright though cause i never really did get use to the hours and not only that but also the actual physical work. my whole leg is a bruise from those damned boxes, and my hands are all cut up and blistered from the walkie rider. i know i dont deserve a good job as far as my education goes, but im not guna wear myself out at that job anymore. pops always comes through, so most likely ill just be working with him. its better like that anyways... 7 to 3pm start pay at 10-12$. because of this though a lot of things ive planned to do are guna be delayed. i just hope i can start right away with pops. thats it for now i guess, ill let it guys know what happened..
-gabby |
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[Apr. 5th, 2006|11:26 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
this life is getting kind of hard. im on 4 hrs of sleep, my body is sore and it looks like im getting a cold. I wake up at 11am and take a nap at 2pm then i go to work at 6pm and get home at 6am and it starts all over again. not only that, but im also getting discouraged because of the fact that im not making quota. i only got 225 boxes last night and quota was probably 320. dirk and shane made over quota which means they got 12-13 dollars an hour. Im still on 9 an hour. :[
AND i keep having bad feelings in the warehouse, like im guna die from something falling on me or getting runned over.. lol thats good! you know its alright though, im keeping myself pretty damn busy. like dirk says... "ima do me!" heh
whoa it felt good to get that out! -the bitchin is over-
take it easy
gab |
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| whats the point of never making mistakes? |
[Mar. 30th, 2006|01:37 am] |
hey lj readers, hows everything?
i finally got some time to write on here, ive been wanting too...but too much going on. so i got me a really good job with home depot. im training to get my license on the forklift/cherrypicker. its good stuff, i havent knocked anything over yet ::knockin on wood:: the only thing that sucks about it is the hours.. 6pm to 4:30am. its guna take time to get used to it, but possible it is. jess wasnt too happy about it cause shes got classes and work during the day so over the week we wouldnt see eachother as much. i only work mon. thru thurs. though, so we got the weekend together. i hate spending time apart from her, i hate havin to wake up at 3 in the morning and drive home. so in conclusion, her and i are talkin about moving in together. it sounded like a good idea at first, but we have only been 2gether for 3 months.. and although we already had our little arguments and know how eachothers reactions are... theres just too many details that we have to look at before making that decision. the only thing holdin us back is the fact that we care about eachother so much and we dont want to risk fucking this up because we moved in together.
so jess has a weight scale in her kitchen right? and i got on it and the motherfucker said i was 145. now thats alot to me considering i never really go over 135 you know? so i was thinkin to myself
"no way, theres something wrong! it has to be my clothes...but my clothes arent 10 pnds...are they? maybe its my shorts, and the beer im holding.. yeah this beer is kinda full...."
heh so instead of getting naked in the kitchen, or even better instead of me actually takin the scale to the bathroom to reassure myself that this was a mistake..... i just put the beer on the scale... along with my wallet,ciggs,shoes, and well.. shorts too. i figured okay ill see how much this all weighs and subtract the rest (fuck you lol) i really just wanted to see how much it all weighed. i was alone in the kitchen and i was buzzed, what better excuse?
my luck though. you know what happened. im sitting there lookin down on the scale which is packed with everything that was on me except my beater and im just wearing boxers and gigglin down at it cause i cant believe im doing this. so dur. jess walks in... "baby! what are you doing???" she ran out laughin and got her friends! {sarcasm} "oh guys come look at this very intelligent girlfriend i picked up" so they frickin all run in as im tryin to keep my balance while slippin the other leg in thru my shorts and they see my beer ciggs wallet all sittin there on the scale and they didnt know wether to laugh or tell jess to kick me out. its not even funny, this isnt a joke.
heheh
i gained 4 pnds.
i cant wait for the elvin to come visit up here, hes guna hate it! aw. i already started buying him cowboy hats and overalls. i own a pair o dem overalls. das de shit yall. sexi. :o)
damn, i was tryin to train my body to stay up till at least 5, but its not working tonight. better luck 2morrow.
im outta hea'
take it easy
gabSter |
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| once upon a time |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|08:47 am] |
hey lj readers, whats poppin? i was thinkin last night before i went to bed, that i never really write in here about things that happen and good times. i used to do that all the time, thats what my lj was for in the first place. just a journal that i could have and record almost all the things that happen in my life good or bad. well enough with the bad, its been "bad" for 7 months now.
so the bday party was a blast! it was a bunch of good friends... me,shane,kim,aaron,greg,james,brett,stacy, russel,hunter, and robbie. we had 50 beers for all of us, which really wasnt enough at the end. we got wasted, played soccer/volleyball. we all went in the freezin stupid ocean and played kill the man with the ball.. i almost drowned. james got stung by a jellyfish! lmao aw. he didnt have to pee, so he used shanes pee.. ewuh. brett and hunter buried me, i was so drunk i feel asleep, and then couldnt get up. we took so many pics, we gatta get em developed. i wanna scan the bitches and post em, but i dont gotta scanner.. so it probably wont happen.
SO im in GA right now. its been so crazy lately. i took a 13 hr train thursday here to pick up my truck (which wasnt even ready), then drove saturday morning at 4:00 am. Now i drove up with my pops yesterday, and i drive down today as soon as my truck is ready. Im guna fuck up those rednecks if they dont have it ready by today. If they dont have it ready today, that means i wont make the concert. i never seen early november live, and ive started to like amber pacific a lot so i was really excited about the concert. but oh well, well see what happens.
well everything is good, monday was me and jess's one month. i wasnt here with her which sucks. she has been really patient with me, im so thankful for that. i kinda get the feeling shes starting to get frustrated though.. with this whole me leavin and coming back thing. ive told her that everytime i leave i miss her more, i just hope she feels the same too. hopefully this will all end by the end of the month. im sick of goin back to florida. no offence guys, u know i love you. but i want to get my life started here in GA already. me and jess got a good thing going, and shane and i have plans together. we just want to have 2 months of rent in the bank just in case we dont find jobs right away. i cant wait to get my own place, shane wants goats lmao. what about my pops who is talkin about havin chickens....alright now thats too country for me.
well talkin about pops, im guna go outside and help him out around the house.
take it easy,
gabster |
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| my life is so over |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|10:28 am] |
my ipod is broken.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
haw :( i cant believe it.
im leavin for the beach right now but i needed to express my MOTHERFUCKIN SADNESS.
now its 3 b day parties together. bretts,kims,and kristys'
see ya,
take it easy
gabSter
but just WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY |
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[Mar. 4th, 2006|07:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nada | ] |
so i left GA at 4 in the morning today. i got here in 5 1/2 hrs by doing 100-120 the whole way. didnt get pulled over the whole time i was speedin on the highway. then i got off sample, made the wrong turn, made a u turn.. got pulled over. i guess i was going 14 ml over the speed limit? 160$ ticket. no radar number on my ticket though, so im fighting agaist it. ugh! i almost made it here with no problems. bunghole
shit happen >_<
i cant wait till 2morrow, were havin kim's bday party at spanish river and its suppost to be a beautiful day. hope it is!
im so sore, after i got into town i went straight to work on the fence job over in las olas seven isles. we still have to go back there one more time, its such a hard job... my whole body aches.
i hope 2morrow turns out well cause i need to relax. the 13 hr train was horrible, then the drive back down.. then working till 10 at night. its paying off though, its all good in my hood.
:) i made a beater that says THUG LIFE across the belly (tupac style) how gangster am i? you dont know.
take it easy
gabSter
ps: THE NEW TBS SONGS ARE FUCKIN... A M A Z I N G!!!
< up against >
< liar liar >
< what it feels like to be a ghost >
< spin >
:: melts :: |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2006|02:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | taking back sunday- LIAR LIAR | ] |
my truck is fixed!
finally.
drivin down 2night with kim
6 days till EARLY NOVEMBER & AMBER PACIFIC! oh yeah and mbr. their new stuff sucks.
take it easy,
gabSter |
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| looking out |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|02:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | music |
| | amber pacific | ] |
its concert season! ive posted a couple of concerts, but they are so many more.
no use for a name, bleeding through, nofx, the TASTE OF CHAOS tour with SOTY and many other bands, less than jake,Reggie & the Full Effect, Dropkick Murphys, saves the day, the acadamy is, living things (heard they were good) and um plenty others that i've probably missed. all those bands are on tour so live it up guys and enjoy them, and remember to get in the moshpit in memory of my show days cuz savannah doesnt have shiettt. well good shit at least. its all.. "ra-ra" bands.. yuck.
well ill catch as many of those as possible!
take it easy
gabSter |
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[Feb. 6th, 2006|02:18 pm] |
The Starting Line
Revolution, Ft Lauderdale, FL
Sun, Mar 5, 2006 05:30 PM |
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[Feb. 6th, 2006|11:21 am] |
lj wont let me delete past entries. bummer.
any one else havin this prob? |
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| abracadabra |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|02:07 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | jimmy eat world- butterflies <3 | ] |
i heard a story tonight that changed the way i feel about a lot of things right now. ive been so selfish, and would be so selfish if i let go of life. i could never hurt you guys like that, i love you all to fuckin much..kinda. heh jp
i think things are lookin up ::knocks on wood::
take it easy
gabSter |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|10:06 am] |
whoo hoo.
im alive
thnks for the concern guys
but ive said it before and ill say it again
im not lucky enough to die |
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| findin the rhythm |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|03:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my guitar | ] |
you see theres a way we can communicate
from miles away
we found a way to fly
even outer space
what about that one machine
that catches a moment and makes it last
forever
great inventions but to me they dont matter
why cant they invent something thats worth something to me
i would go without everything else
if they just made something that causes you to
fall back
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pills that change the human race
choose the sex of your unborn baby
music you can take where ever you please
none of these inventions really matter
to me
why cant they invent something thats worth something to me
i would go without everything else
if they just made something that causes you to
fall back
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interlude
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i guess ill deal with it now
you told me id make it out of this hole
but i still wish every night
that they would just invent something that causes you to
fall back
in love with me
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| if she only knew |
[Jan. 31st, 2006|12:55 am] |
| [ | music |
| | netinho- oh milla | ] |
i get excited over a nose bleed
hoping that theres something deeply wrong with me
heres a chance
a sharp pain to my lungs
could it be something "good" or is it another false alarm?
heres a chance
a semi is speeding
maybe he wont see me and smash into the drivers side
heres a chance
i have a headache
is it possible that i can take the wrong pill
heres a chance
chances i wish would come true
so i could see the side of you i once knew
desperate to know that you really care
i would almost die just to hear you say
that you care for me today
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for some reason ive been feeling that my days are counted. what is that?
death is near, i dont know who or what
but im scared
"to better days"
::raises glass of milk::
dont be like me
just
take it easy...
gabSter |
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